I apologize for dropping off of the boards after our returning from our trip in November. I was blindsided by my Mother getting diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer the week after my husband and I came home from Disney. She had not even been sick. She passed away in January. I’ve been devastated. I still am. I’m in shock, denial, depression, and I’m angry. I don’t know how to more forward without her in my life. I’m coping the best I can, still have some bad days and moments that hit me. Everyone says it gets easier but that still seems impossible at this point. It feels sometimes more like I’m waiting on her to call after her being away, not “forever.” Having trouble wrapping my brain around that concept. I guess a piece of my heart is gone. That’s the only way I can explain it. My Mom loved Disney and Walt Disney World. My love of it all is tangled up with her. My husband and I had booked a Free Dining Bounceback when we were down there. But I’m having a hard time getting excited about going. I want to go as I love it, but don’t know how I’ll handle it at the same time. On top of all that, we haven’t been 100% sure we won’t be cancelling as my job is talking about letting people go because of budgeting problems. I don’t think it will be me, but it could be. They will be cutting some jobs for sure. So I’ve had that stress every day too with all the grief. This year has totally sucked.