I feel the EXACT same way. The fact that you could get kicked out because of someone else's behavior is terrifying! I will be 21 before the Fall Program starts and I would rather not room with people who could potentially cause trouble. I, too, would love to just work and spend my free time in the parks. I've been wanting to do this program for so long!That makes me super super nervous. My first two years of college, that was the mentality in the dorm I was in, tattle or you'll be grouped in with the rule breakers, often even if you weren't around when the rule breaking occurred. It was very stressful and led to a lot of paranoia and ugliness, to the point where I had to move out because the drama was just too much. I spent the next 2 years in a different dorm with a much better environment. Still strict rules, but the mentality was more that people were responsible for their own actions, and not that of their roommates or friends. So if I get accepted to the program, I'm quite nervous about living in that kind of environment again, especially if I end up in a 4-bedroom apartment. Then I'd have to make sure to know everything that was going on with 7 other people, poised to go running to the people in charge, lest I be termed for something I have no knowledge of? I just want to work and spend my free time at the parks; I wasn't even planning on spending all that much time in the actual apartment.
Sorry for the rant, it's just scary to think that my dream could be cut short just by being assigned to live with one person who makes a wrong move.