SConnell, you and your family will be in my prayers. Sometimes it seems like when it rains it pours. 2006 was our "hard" year: I had our 4th child, my husband parents both passed away suddenly and unexpectedly, and our son was diagnosed with cancer right after turning 4. It was the worst 6 months of our lives. I honestly almost lost all my Faith but but thank goodness, even though it didn't feel like it, God was carrying us the whole time. It took time for the fog to clear to be able to see the path we had traveled and how many provisions God made for us along the way, we truly saw beauty from ashes! We all have had hard situations but none are never the same, so to say I know what your family is going through would be insensitive. I could not imagine the loss of a child, even though it has been a very real possibility for us, it is just unnatural. I hope your SIL has a good support group of family and friends, she will definantly be in my thoughts and prayers! I understand about you wanting to post on the podcast boards, I wish I knew about this place and the podcast during our trial. I am sure the podcast gang will never know how much of a bright spot they are to some of their listeners during hard times!