Hi again. Today it has been one month since my darling Ron left me. It was a very hard day. I tried to keep busy, but I just cried all day. I can't believe it's been a month and yet it seems like he has been gone for such a long time. I miss him so much.
Tuesday I went over to my cousins pool and we had a nice swim. I can talk to her about Ron and most of the time I don't cry. She is helping to keep me sane this summer.
Sometimes I have a good day and I get along pretty well. Not today. I still have my temper tantrums and yell that it wasn't supposed to be like this. He was supposed to be here for me for a lot more years. I want him back here. I want to go back in time and change things. He was so handsome and strong. It's not fair that he is gone. He was such a good man, so sweet and funny. It's just NOT FAIR.
I did receive a wonderful PM from someone whose family went through the same thing. Only the wife couldn't let her husband go. He woke from his coma but with a lot of brain damage. Now the poor woman has to care for him 24/7. It is very sad for both of them. So I know I did the right thing for my Ron. He wouldn't have wanted that. It did give me some peace of mind. So THANK YOU again for that PM.