Prayers for your family. And remember just because it is the 2 of you for now, you are still a family. I began reading this and was not going to share my story. I remember during my 8 years of infertility hearing every story told. I remember thinking, yeah, but that's not me. But, as a pp stated, the importance of hope should not be overlooked. Please though at the same time there is much to be said for acceptance when the time is right for you ... if it comes to that.
We went from thinking "when God thinks it is right it will happen", to well maybe a little help, (I think that was called clomid), to switching doctors, to finding a "reproductive endocronoligist (sp?)" We had false urine pregnancy tests (several of them actually) and even a false blood pregnancy test (which I swear must have been some other womans. Whom I hope didn't go out to drink her sorrows away if she in fact got my test results). We tried an "identified adoption" which led to us having the baby for 1 night, then the birth mother taking him back. Long before this I had started doubting my faith. Why me? And reading all those stories about parents that do horrible things to their own children. WHY?
Finally we called an adoption agency and made an appointment. 2 days before that appointment I found out I was pregnant. We did not cancel the appointment we did postpone it. We talked and decided maybe that is why. We are meant to give a child that may not ordinarily have the love we could give. So, we intended to adopt as well as have our own child. Then the day before our new scheduled appointment I began to bleed. Thinking we were loosing our baby we drove to the hospital, had an "internal ultra sound" and found we were having 3!!! 3 babies. I was told my infertility was do to me having an excessive amount of male hormones.
However after reading this thread I wonder if it isn't due to my clotting disorder. I was told the chances I would ever become spontanously pregnant are slim to none. Fast forward to 11 years later. I am 39 years old. DH & I are sitting down with our triplet 11 year olds telling them they are going to have a baby brother or sister.
I now say all my children are surprise miracles. We never did adopt. But, I no longer wonder why. I beleive we were meant for something very special, and certainly something we were not capable of caring for properly at the young age when we decided to start "trying" to have a baby.
BTW, we tried all the little "tricks". We even bought a book on it. Some of those were just plain CRAZY. Someday, although it isn't funny now for you, someday you will laugh at the things you thought and did to make your miracle happen. Good Luck and God Bless.