siren0119
DIS Veteran
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- Sep 26, 2018
I'm so sorry for your loss.
I lost my mom very suddenly and unexpectedly when I was 22 and she was 44, it's been 21 years since we lost her. We were also very close.
What I have learned about grief is this:
- there isn't a "set" timeline. If you are still grieving after a year or two, or three..it's OK. If you start to feel more "normal" after three months, it's OK. There's no cookie cutter for grief, we all process and work through it in our own way.
- "Normal" is a new thing. It's not going to look like it did before they passed. The world as you know it is different. I had trouble seeing the world as "ok" for a long time, but some of that was my own resistance to accepting the world as a place that didn't have her in it. That's OK too.
- The hole left by the person you lost, and the pain of the loss don't necessary go away....but the edges definitely soften over time. The hole is still there, but it's a part of me the way a scar is a part of me..and more often than not I now embrace that empty space because it reminds me she was here and important.
- Talking to someone (a professional, someone outside the situation, a grief group...whatever works for you) is REALLY helpful. For one, it is a good reminder that you're not alone. For another, it's easy to get on the hamster wheel of grief and depression and not really see that there's a way off of it. Talking to people outside of the situation can help you see the way off, and know there's a way out of the cycle of grief that doesn't involve "forgetting" the person you lost - that's never the end goal.
- It's going to hit you at odd times over the years. Embrace it, let it be a bittersweet moment where you miss them but you still have the ability to love them as if they were still here. In the beginning, I had a really hard time with the holidays and milestones. Some years, those are the times the grief returns. Other years, it's some random Tuesday during an otherwise unimportant week. It just washes over me and I miss her. It doesn't mean you "aren't over it"...we never get over it and that's how it should be - it just means your heart had a reason to bring that person to the forefront of your mind for a bit. They're always in the background of EVERYTHING anyway, it's just them stepping back into the spotlight for a time. Embrace it and know THAT is part of the new normal.
Most of all, don't ever feel ashamed about showing your grief. It's proof that your person was loved and cherished, and special. Surround yourself with people who respect that, who will allow you space to grieve but also not let you forget that there's life to be lived still - and your person would want you out there living it. You are carrying them with you now anyway - let them be a part of your new chapter.
I lost my mom very suddenly and unexpectedly when I was 22 and she was 44, it's been 21 years since we lost her. We were also very close.
What I have learned about grief is this:
- there isn't a "set" timeline. If you are still grieving after a year or two, or three..it's OK. If you start to feel more "normal" after three months, it's OK. There's no cookie cutter for grief, we all process and work through it in our own way.
- "Normal" is a new thing. It's not going to look like it did before they passed. The world as you know it is different. I had trouble seeing the world as "ok" for a long time, but some of that was my own resistance to accepting the world as a place that didn't have her in it. That's OK too.
- The hole left by the person you lost, and the pain of the loss don't necessary go away....but the edges definitely soften over time. The hole is still there, but it's a part of me the way a scar is a part of me..and more often than not I now embrace that empty space because it reminds me she was here and important.
- Talking to someone (a professional, someone outside the situation, a grief group...whatever works for you) is REALLY helpful. For one, it is a good reminder that you're not alone. For another, it's easy to get on the hamster wheel of grief and depression and not really see that there's a way off of it. Talking to people outside of the situation can help you see the way off, and know there's a way out of the cycle of grief that doesn't involve "forgetting" the person you lost - that's never the end goal.
- It's going to hit you at odd times over the years. Embrace it, let it be a bittersweet moment where you miss them but you still have the ability to love them as if they were still here. In the beginning, I had a really hard time with the holidays and milestones. Some years, those are the times the grief returns. Other years, it's some random Tuesday during an otherwise unimportant week. It just washes over me and I miss her. It doesn't mean you "aren't over it"...we never get over it and that's how it should be - it just means your heart had a reason to bring that person to the forefront of your mind for a bit. They're always in the background of EVERYTHING anyway, it's just them stepping back into the spotlight for a time. Embrace it and know THAT is part of the new normal.
Most of all, don't ever feel ashamed about showing your grief. It's proof that your person was loved and cherished, and special. Surround yourself with people who respect that, who will allow you space to grieve but also not let you forget that there's life to be lived still - and your person would want you out there living it. You are carrying them with you now anyway - let them be a part of your new chapter.