Hi Folks,
We moved our furniture into our new home on Thursday morning. The movers were done by 10:30.
Hospice delievered the necessary equipment at 11:00am and then delivered my Mom at noon.
Thursday was a rough day.
We have had round the clock Hospice care since noon on Thursday and the nurses have been wonderful.
Getting used to sleeping in your brand new house with a stranger sitting in your living room is odd at first, but when you are tired enough.....it just doesnt matter.
The decision to bring my Mom home was difficult at first, but we've come to realize that it was the best decision we made. She rests better and seems content. There is regular house noise and the two dogs bark......but those are "home" noises and I think she's finding comfort in them.
As my Mom helped choose this new house and was involved in all of the planning and decision making, it seems right that she should get to live here for whatever time she has left.
I find myself strangely at peace with this. Dont get me wrong, a few well chosen words can send me over the edge, but it seems easier to accept when you know that the one you love is being made comfortable and that very soon the suffering will end.
I dont know how or what I will feel when the inevitable happens, but for right now I feel lucky to have the ability to do this. It will be the last thing I ever get to do for my Mom.
I'm blessed with the very best partner I could ever wish for. John has been strong and supportive through all of this and I told him today that my love and gratitude dont seem adequate. He tells me they are and that I'm being silly.
I'd like to thank everyone that has posted, sent PMs, emailed, called, said prayers...and kept all of the other positive thinking going on. It's amazing to come here and read these words of encouragement, love and support. Again......my gratitude seems inadequate. Thank you so much.
At this point, I am resigned to the fact that the most I can hope for is a quiet peaceful passing. We have done everything we could.
From the deepest part of my heart, thank you for keeping me, my Mom and my family in your thoughts and prayers.
Kevin