How do I get over a bad race?
I get back out there. I mean - it sucks. Big time.
I ran a marathon in November 2017. Local race on a rails-to-trail that I run all the time. Trained on it. I desperately wanted sub-4:00, even though I knew it was a stretch. But I really wanted sub-4:30 because that had been a goal of mine since I started running. I had a 4:30 in me.
Race day came and the weather was terrible. Thunderstorms. Rain started at about mile 2, and from miles like 6-16, it just poured. I had on shorts, a t-shirt, and jacket. I had to keep taking the jacket off because I'd get too hot but then too cold with no sleeves on. Tying it around my waist. Untying it around my waist, etc.
Mile 20, the sun came out and just pounded us. Then it was too hot!
My shoes were full of water and felt like lead, and about mile 22, some guy, running the relay so only 2 miles into his race goes by "You can do it! Not that far! Come on! Don't give up! Get going" (I was walking). I cried.
I finished in 4:35. It was not my day. I don't think it was much of anyone's day in that weather. But it sucked because I had put in the training, I was running well, and I was the most trained for that race than any other race I had done.
I did the 2018 Disney marathon after that - wasn't as well trained due to some sickness and finished in 4:43 (4:35 if I had only done 26.2 miles like my other marathon - I run long at Disney). But I ran with a college roommate and had so much more fun.
But I haven't done a marathon since those - the failure has kind of scared me a little bit. Like why should I devote 7-8 hours/week of my life to this training just for everything to fail me on the one day that I need it?
And maybe that's the real reason why, even though I've rented DVC, I haven't signed up for a 2020 Marathon Weekend race yet. Because I want to do the November local marathon and then Disney marathon in January again like I did in 2017/2018 (because if I'm doing all that training for a November full, I might as well run another in January!), and I'm afraid of failure at either of them again.
And you would have thought that my first marathon - the 2013 WDW Marathon where I finished in 6:42:53 (and planned to run 4:45-ish) - was my worst race experience (flu, cold, hadn't eaten for 2 days, hot as Hades, etc.).